Lost in the minds abyss

It's been a real long time... about a month to be exact.
A lot has um.. gone wrong in the last month.
Emotional rollercoaster. --> leaves me feeling very ueasy about things.
She whined
She became bitter... nd wanted change
change came.. then a week later. he's not sure
leading to [[a week of assholish actions]] and her not wanting to communicate.
exactly at the next weekend she has been missed
weekend after... they're not quite sure where everything is going... things are up in the air
Last weekend. She tries to communicate, and he fails. She gives up/breaks down/is angered/hurt/and suddenly hit with isolation.
She ends it. He hurts. She doesn't care!
Sunday of last weekend. She gives him a shot... he then gives her 2 days of love showers
by the 3rd day the uneasiness has settled in...
tis now the 4th day...
She doesn't want to be alone... but she won't mind... yet she doesn't know how to let go.
It pains her so.
But why??? when he is not who she wants HIM to be. Askew of what her mind wishes him to be. That is not HE...
Not the first to say good morning between the pair even tho awake he is nd phone is there.
Not the last to tell her goodnight or she to him, leaving someone else on their minds brim...
No funny stories or goofy thoughts, or a pointless thing over which they fought...
just mechanical dummies. Wishing upon the other, the thoughts of another

So what shall she do?? If only I knew