ftw

its snowing...

Happy birthday lover

Today is my boyfriends 21st... i'm excited for him
tomorrow i'll be flying in to see him for a few days :]
i'm excited to be with him...

i'm gonna bring the bad out of him nd get him fucked up, then take life threatening pictures of him...
I'm excited to "do" him

lol
POW!!!

i need to get outta here

I swear i have nothing better to do than be more dramatic than i already am, which leaves nothing but me picking out all the negativity in things.
I can't just let shit be.. or focus on the good... i have so much time that i actually recognize the bad in everything...
good.. maybe??
bad.. yea it's hurtin some pplz feelings...

not too sure if i should care or not...


on another note.. i didnt go otu like i wanted to tonight...
a life was almost taken from me...
serious shit... got me thinking about a lot...
and as nit picky nd shit as i may be... got damnit the last thing i wanna hear from yu, yu, nd yu is i love yu... cuz damnit i dunno when i'll get to see yu or talk to yu again :/

Ranting... smh -> where is the love?

i'm really torn about you and me right now...
if you haven't noticed by now, i stay on the internet...
more specifically the book nd flappin away wit some twitts
and i like to be high key....
but you're so low key...
i like to show off... and be shown off... i've just toned it down much more..
it's easy to be subtle about it now days...
but where are yu mannn??? return the favor dude...
FTW!
your birthday is in 5 days...
i'll be with you in 6 days....
I wish you would say goodnight to a fucker... damn...
i'm soo not a morning person
just cuz i'm awake means nothing...
i'm focused at night... gettin no love
next week... i wont know what to feel...
but i keep on thinking about august 8th when you left...
i think i'll forever have [[hurt]] in my heart because of that...
it wouldnt be able to happen this weekend.. but there's a chance for some shit over thanksgiving break...
believe me if some shit like that happens i'm leaving yu for good...
was it life changing.. no... but got damnit that aint me... i'm too selfish for that nd i wont change


i wish i could say g'night... still... everyday...
next week will be good... no room for anything but perfect i guess....
i just wish we could see our true colors....
cuz clearly were -not- the same in words as we are in actions...


i'll belive it when i see it...

Lost in the minds abyss

It's been a real long time... about a month to be exact.
A lot has um.. gone wrong in the last month.
Emotional rollercoaster. --> leaves me feeling very ueasy about things.
She whined
She became bitter... nd wanted change
change came.. then a week later. he's not sure
leading to [[a week of assholish actions]] and her not wanting to communicate.
exactly at the next weekend she has been missed
weekend after... they're not quite sure where everything is going... things are up in the air
Last weekend. She tries to communicate, and he fails. She gives up/breaks down/is angered/hurt/and suddenly hit with isolation.
She ends it. He hurts. She doesn't care!
Sunday of last weekend. She gives him a shot... he then gives her 2 days of love showers
by the 3rd day the uneasiness has settled in...
tis now the 4th day...
She doesn't want to be alone... but she won't mind... yet she doesn't know how to let go.
It pains her so.
But why??? when he is not who she wants HIM to be. Askew of what her mind wishes him to be. That is not HE...
Not the first to say good morning between the pair even tho awake he is nd phone is there.
Not the last to tell her goodnight or she to him, leaving someone else on their minds brim...
No funny stories or goofy thoughts, or a pointless thing over which they fought...
just mechanical dummies. Wishing upon the other, the thoughts of another

So what shall she do?? If only I knew

Successful

Drake Feat Trey Songz - Successful (So Far Gone) from October's Very Own on Vimeo.

joints aches nd pains

im a pretty young kidd...
lucky enough to have not had surgery,
but i've always been pushing the line of [[needing]] surgery
my shoulders are hypermobile
the tendons holding my knees together... a bit stretched i might say
my minisci [[stuff inbetween the knee joint]], i believe 3 of the 4 are fairly worn nd on the verge of a spereation
thankfully my oschgood slaughter's [[lower knee/ tibia problem]] shit hasnt acted up like a good friend of mine
however it's still very very painful for me to get on my knees in any way, kneel, or even squat at times...
i found out in July that my back has been hurting for 2 yrs because my pelvis was REALLY out of alignment
and i found out yesterday the reason my right thumb hurt when i pushed things or opened bottles, was because some how about a year nd a half ago i hyper extended my thumb and it damaged some nerves...
so in about 10 years if i go on ranting about having to have surgery on my knees, hips, shoulders, and right hand.. you'll know why

i love what i've done to my body...
[[head ass]]

One month til d-day

So on the 24th of august I'm gone dude!!!

Ima try nd break down aug

July 31-aug 2 Canada??
Aug 5 & 6 da fam arrives
Aug 8 mandatory Poole function / the bday of the year (nana)
Aug 12-19 family bidness in bmore
Aug 14-16 v.b.
Aug 20-21 school bidness??
Aug 23day of rest/prayer
Aug24 D-DAY

Thatas all I can think of for now

I love my yellow one

pessimistic to say the least

so i ranted on about the bullshit goin on in this fuckin house
for a good half hour and...
i
didnt
swear
!!!

This is fuckin crazy cuz i just cant believe i didnt let out a single,
"well fuck that shit"
"fuckin..."
"he's full of shit"
"fuck yu"
"fuck no"
"bitchassness"
comment...

oh well...
i hate the place even more
and i'm more than willing to raise hell
until i leave.
cuz when i leave..
i don't plan on coming back
sooo,
get da fuck outta my way bitches!!!

Good FUCKING Grief *tear*

Thursday night: He arrives
Friday: We cleaned
Saturday: I was blessed, but stressed
Sunday: I was lonely while surrounded by many
Monday Morning: I cried

The tight grip as you hold me
Those gorgeous eyes in the morning
Two soft and inviting lips
Your big strong hands

I know I didn't show it when you left,
but my world got torn apart
AGAIN
when I dropped you off, and watched you walk into the airport...

I hate this part right here...

<3

WTF?!

another night sleepless, but this time i'm watching the sunrise!!!

updating will actually happen later... i'm on some bull 

good morning

-A.E.

Drake Concert - and Ig'nant Niggas

 

 

 

 

SOOOO
The doors were supposed to open at 10:30pm
The concert was supposed to start at MIDNIGHT
We wanted to be right at the front so me, Lance, Ayub, Aaron are up in the like by about 9pm
hella pplz met up wit us tho like Britt "Wells", Dave, Vic nd his cuz, Miss Breezy nd her "producer" lol, nd someother folks...
We don't get in this bitch til about 11:50!!!
So of course we're mad already
So the HOB, is steadily filling up with eager fans of all sorts
shout out to OJ Mayo, Jerimih, D. Rose, DJ Timbuk Tu, ROB BATES nd C-Sick, Lupe Fiasco, nd more
Check this though.. We were standin there WITH THE CURTAINS CLOSED UNTIL 2AM
Tell me that aint some bull...
So far we've got 5hours of just standing and no action [[9pm - 2am]]

Finally the Opening acts come out
Frist dude was aight,
I cant remember the 2nd pplz,
Then Ben1 came on, tryna give us new shit.. mark my words
B1: I know y'all been waitin for a new single
Crowd: NOOOOOOO!!!!
B1: Yeaa?!, YEA?!? aight I got yu
Crowd: *groan*
of course Shawnna came out on neva leave my girl shit... her tutu was hot lol
then finaly the official opening act Sly Polaroid comes out..
this nigga looks like the villain dude from Barber shop
cept this nigga had no neck. He had to be about 6'3 wit some big ass shoulder and NO FUCKIN NECK!!!
They were on for farrr too long, and don't ever expect to do a slow song for a crowd that dont know yu or care about yu...
Some foo thru a cd back on stage at em, nd buddy tried to be like ok whoeva thru the cd back, nd got cut the fuck off by the curtains lmao!!

FINALLY THE SHOW BEGINS [[3:10AM]]
Drake comes out nd start off with Congratulations!!!
He did Successful, Sooner Than Later, Say What's Real, Fillet Mignon... and I'm sure about 2 more other songs
He did a freestyle FOR Chicago
He showed us how Drake sets the mood, his favorite song to fuck to, and let us know that he considers himself a real man, and that when his woman comes home he gone cook a good ass meal [[I forgot everything he was talkin about cookin, but it was good]], and givin a message, and gettin it crackin haha
it was hot...

WHEN I SAY NIGGA I MEAN AN INGNORANT BULLSHIT ASS BLACK MUTHA F...

Then, we think he was gettin ready to do "A Night Off", but some nigga to the right [[I was in the dead center]] decided that they just had to get into it, at the damn near end of the concert!!!
One dude was gettin beat wit a stool lol, SHIT WAS REAL SONN!
At first Drake didn know what was happenin, nd hella security got was crowdin around him, then Drake is like oh I'm hard, nd tried postin up nd shit.
Next thing yu know [[we had no idea he was here]] Lupe comes outta nowhere nd gets this kidd Drizzy off stage.
Finaly shit starts to calm down a bit, so Drake hops back on stage and starts doin "Every Girl"
and then said Good Night!!! [[4:10am]]

The NIGGAS that were fightin defintiely came back nd shot a few off
but we were in the clear, on the bridge, by then
Got to the car around 4:25
Got home at 5:30

No more concerts at House of Blues, that was my first and last
If i see Drake again, hopefull it'll be at Carabana lol

Sleep deprivation

It's a bitch I must say...

• I haven't really sleep for more than 5 hours a night since i think thursday...
• It really friggin sucks...
• like last night i went to sleep around 7:30 m and woke up at 10:30 :/
• took 2 finals today.... got anally raped :-(
• went straight back to the library to study for my exam tomorrow.. er today (tuesday)
• finished one of my assignments due on wednesday :]
• got bored and edited some pix!!! yay!! ...
• ima post these bad boys nd go to bed like now...
• I should be up aorund 10 :[
• twitter and FB will be updated most until i get home thursday

• 3 days til DEAR SUMMER, 4 days til DRAKE, 9 days til i can get it in :]

ehh.. oh and happy mommy's day

I love my mother...

too bad this post will have nothing to do with her.. nah um
shit got reeeaaalll personal today, and i love her even more, but i wont go into the "awwww, thats so sweet" type shit

FML

4 fuckin nights in a row, going to bed after the sun rises, and waking up maybe 3 hours later!!!
naturally, waking up, might i add
minus friday because i got the wonderful call teling me to grab my drake ticket [[we wil be deep in attendance]]

Head Check

I can't concentrate worth shit, so studying has been at bare, and I mean bare minimum... sad really.. I doubt i'll fail anything thought because i guess i can work hard after procrastinating for so damn long... fuck what i said before -> I refuse to fail!! so i'l be doing much work today and tomorrow morning...

Work out bull shit

So I've never worked out my inner thighs. It's always just been outter thighs nd quads. So yesterday my "intelligent" ass decides to do the lil machine and work my inner thighs...
DUMBEST IDEA OF THE WEEK!!! I cant walk right, or sit right, i'm just 100% uncomfortable! Only thing that has to do with working out and inner thighs are... yeaaaa

haha
I just had 2 brandon's and a branden text me at the same time...
shows how easily amused I get...
smh

excitement

Summer Summer Summer Tiime

I got to bed at 6:30 am, and I know i'll be waking up in 5hrs to go eat and get back on the books as usual...

BUT

I get a damn call at 10:15am!!! [[Who the hell is blowin up my phone this early?!?! like wtf?!?!]]
Turns out it's Lance... believe me thas my dude nd all.. but I was far from enthusiastic to hear his voice that damn early in the mornin...
In my half sleepishness, I hear.. yea so I copped my DRAKE ticket cuz they dropped the age down to 18..



WHEN I SAY I WOKE THE FUCK UP...
best believe I was already online logging into my ticketmaster account before he could say to go online and print it out!!!

I have finals up until the morning of the 14th,
my friends are havin a party that night,
Drake is the following night
and my *baby* comes home a week later!!!

This summer is gonna start off so f**kin right
I will truly be the happiest kid in the world!!!

Love it!!!

Torn

I really don't feel so hot right now.
I don't believe I'm sick either.
It's a mental thing,
but it involves my new favorite toy.
Like I've always known that I've wanted it,
I just didn't know what kind I would get,
how it would run,
and if I think i would like/love it in the long run.
Well, I came to the decision that it was the best thing smokin.
However, there were a couple malfunctions.
At first, I left it, so it wasn't with me at school.
I knew that I had it, I thought it was that hot shit,
and the I couldn't play with it just whenever.
But even so, I knew that when I got back to it,
it would be bliss.

LATELY
This semester I've had half access to it I guess you could say.
Don't have everything with me to enjoy it 100%,
but i have enough to get some good tick (time) with it.
It worked out quiet well at the beginning of the semester.

BUT
Things have changed.
There have been more and more malfunctions,
and with my paranoid ass, I'm thinking "oh well it's done for".
Then I do some more research nd such and figure out that it'll all be ok.
Yet, with all the things going on,
and the amount of work I put in, to make sure everything is ok
and to make it worth while
I feel as if I'm no longer getting as much out of it.
I'm not saying I'm bored of it at all,
because, best believe this is the best thing since sliced bread!
It's just that I'm disappointed.
It's changed on me, and I feel like with the work I put in,
I'm getting much less in return.

WELL
Summer is just around the corner,
and all the components will be together again.
So there is totally chance for redemption,
and clearly I'm more than willing to wait that out!
I want this experience to be magnificent and life altering!
But, there's more odd against it :/

SUCH AS
These next couple week will be an eternity of hell,
due to finals week.
Also, it will be great in the summer no doubt,
but when I leave it again to go back to school,
I sense that I will feel all this turmoil and some.
It's a really scary thought, because this is the best gift I've ever gotten
And I don't want to lose it, or give it up for something,
...less

My Mind Body and Soul are at unrest.

Only time will tell.....

G'night
A.E.

Right before Din Din

So um.. yea today's weather has been soo....
BIPOLAR to say the least.
It was Sunny at 11
Misting at noon
gloomy at 1 but not precipitaton
i come back outside at 2:40 and there's [drizzle]
i turned in a paper, so five minutes later it's sunny as all hell and just damn near blinding!
however it look like the quiet before a storm, because half the sky was glowing with yellow orange blaze, then you look into the sky and not even a mile away it was just black!
the clouds have been swimming through the sky at least 50mph... it's crazy

sadly this entire week has been gloomy... it just been dark!
today was the first day i saw sun and it only lasted 5mins! hmph!!

this will be the first friday all month that it wont be above 70 and sunny as fuck!

hopefully if it's still gloomy, there will be no rain... because i have a couple outdoor activities to tend to.

CIAO,
AE

Le Premier {{Blog}}

Hmm...
Sitting here.
It's 11:15pm
Je suis censé être à la salle de gymnase
but sadly I am not.
I'm instead wrting
Mon Premier {Blog}

*Thought's of the hw due at 11 am, the four page french paper due at noon, and why I'm not doing them right now... have subsided in my mind.
*I just created the facebook event for my Fourth annual BBQ!!! [[not all are welcome]]
*[[HE]] ordered some yeezy's, then told me later... He said he was done buying shoes! [[ass]]
yea it sucks, because I have no money...
I lied...
I currently have money... (amazing)
However, this money wil not be spent, touched, or even looked at until the time comes.
I will be purchasing a DSLR. Not sure what type though... I'm giving myself a $580 price limit.
*Fuck this blog... for tonight...

***Twitter update, then to the gymnase I go!!!***

~~My children are out in drunken laughter...~~
For it's Bomb Night @ CO's
and some have just reached 19
I said...
Fuck yu weaklings
I'll be out next week
WITH THE BIG KIDS!